you are going to break my heart

they say you never know in advance but I do. you are going to be lonely at Louisiana & Monroe and I am going to feel it all the way from Adams & Arizona. I am going to go for a walk and I will meet you coming around a corner. you will forget yourself and kiss me when we are alone in the kitchen. I will have missed you and you are the crack down the center of me so I will kiss you back, hard. I don’t think I’ll quite be able to regret it later. you are my despair and you are burning up everything. you are the trojan horse that is going to bring my city down. you will heal from her, like I will heal from you, eventually. it won’t last forever, though it feels like it will. you will get famous and successful and farther and farther away until you are a speck on the horizon, and then gone. but by then I will have left, following the tracks on my own so I won’t have to see you get smaller and smaller until you are a memory of warm sleep and cement steps. I will be fine and I will fall in love and I will see the world, but I won’t be able to ever eat halibut. you are going to break my heart. they say you never know, but I do.

~ by disarmingjane on June 4, 2007.